Alone

Sometime I want to keep it to myself
Don't want advice, don't want your help

People make you feel confused
"Haven't you tried this; my uncle did that"

I just want to choose a path and go
No looking back.

Time

They all have time
so it would seem
to drink their wine
read magazines

I love to watch them
go about their business
never thinking it will ever end...

Burden

It's a burden
That's tough to share
because I love them
because they care

The pain is great
but they are hurting too
It's a heavy weight
But it's too much for me to give to you

Not Real

Not to me.
Not this
It happens to unknown faces
Shaking their fists.

Maybe it's not real
But I know it is
I'm the target
This time it's a direct hit

How

How are you feeling?
Are you doing OK?
Is there anything I can do?
It's what they all say.

I know they mean well
It's what I'd say too.
It's just so different
When it happens to you...

Two more hours to wait for the news
Will I wake up or is this the permanent snooze?

The joke

I always thought this was a joke
Not a big problem, just a little poke

What? It can Kill? That's not fair!
I didn't even know it was down there.

Ups and Downs

Tending toward fear
Back to the positive
Am I out of here
Or is this just a pain.

Serious

No question it's serious
It's quite advanced
Very mysterious
What is my chance?

Is it time to cry?

Is it time to die?

Singing do do do do do to keep from screaming.

Wondering if I'll soon stop dreaming.

Prostate Cancer

Decided it's time to begin writing down some thoughts about this.

I was diagnosed with Prostate cancer last week. Kinda shaken up. More to follow...